I'd like to say it's because I lead such a busy and eventful life that I hardly get a moment to sit down at a computer and type away. If only that were the reason...
In all actuality, I just can't think of anything interesting to write about. I'll sit down, start typing up a post, then halfway through I'll re-read what I have written and say "Wow! No one in their right mind would want to read that." I then delete the post and spend the rest of my evening eating chocolate and browsing used furniture for sale on craigslist (guilty pleasures!). I just don't find myself very interesting. Yes, I know I'm fabulous and amazing...but who really wants to constantly read that? "Blah Blah Blah my life is awesome Blah Blah Blah".
I've also found that blogging is difficult when you're an emotionally private person. I really don't like sharing how I feel in a public forum. "Why?" you ask...here are my reasons:
A) I don't believe that blogs or any other public forum should be used to "blow off steam" or "bad mouth" people, places, things or life in general. I've got plenty to vent about, but I know it would come back to bite me in the ass if I did so in a blog (as well it should). So... I wont (unless it's something that just MUST be shared with the masses..I'm sure that day will come someday)
B) I am uncomfortable with sappy, sentimental jargon. I'm sentimental in my own ways...none of which include "warm fuzzy sharing time" with people in cyber space. However, I do like oversharing on any topic Josie, Pregnancy or Childbirth related. (Love me some super gross details!)
C) I'm kind of a robot when it comes to emotions. I'm very good at reading other people's emotions but even better at hiding my own. Plus, I'm very jaded when it comes to certain emotions, feelings, notions, etc (I'd share why I feel this way but wouldn't that go against EVERYTHING I just talked about). Maybe someday I'll share some deep, dark feelings with you all. Won't that be nice.
DESPITE all of this I still want to try my best at keeping this blog afloat. My suggestions to readers out there: Don't expect a lot, and you won't be disappointed :)
I have a reason for calling my blog a diary, as opposed to a "blog"...a journal if you will. I enjoy the writing simply for the writing aspect and lifestyle. But everyone is different. That kind of endeavor works for some people, not for others. Frankly, I think I only have a couple of readers who read what I write, and they tend to be people who either like my writing style, or are involved in textile arts. Sometimes I write a lot...some times not for long periods. It's definitely a personal thing.
ReplyDeleteI am an extremely private, quite anti-social person who shares with almost no deeply with almost no one. For me it's an acceptable outlet, not to trash people, but to say some things I can't seem to share out loud.
Anyway...just rambling. You might find you write more as life takes on new aspects in the future...and maybe not...and, that's okay! ~